School Blues..

I’m in my final year of secondary and things are beginning to get very serious and very stressful. We all know that in times of hardship we have to try and keep our head up high and not sink beneath the waves. However, it’s easier said than done. It’s like none of my teachers help!!! All they do is pile on more and more homework expecting me to do it in the two days I have to relax…And so the waves get higher and like all other 15/16 year olds, we are drowning ourselves in problems and stress.

In recent news we’ve seen that grade boundaries have gone up, meaning much more is expected of our generation! We have to grow up yet still be kids for the comfort ability of “adults”? I’m failing to understand how this works and the pressure is on for me to know how NOW!

In all of this you can lose yourself, lose direction and lose hope.

 I’ve noticed my attitude is sinking deeper into negativity and I sometimes don’t realise how hard it is stay positive. For instance, maths is not my best friend, nor my associate; we can litro call maths my enemy! But putting myself down about it isn’t going to help! All I’m doing is sinking deeper and deeper while everyone else seems to be walking on water.

“IT MUST BE ILLUMINATI”

Yesterday I was having some typical girl talk with some friends about the usual, Kimye’s wedding, Rihanna getting banned from Instagram, and the Jay Z and Beyonce ‘On The Run Tour’, then the inevitable was said… 

“It must be Illuminati”

All I could think was “not this again!” Not another regular person thinking they have the inside scoop on the worlds secret society. In the conversation, my friend went on to say that she knew everything, including the sacrifice that each member has to make in order to be in the Illuminati. In my most sarcastic and undermining voice I asked “Where did you get all this information from?” Obviously there was 10 seconds of silence followed by “trust me, I watched a documentary” which I took as “don’t trust me! I’m just a young, naïve and powerless girl who bought a pirate DVD (along with 2 others for a tenna) from Mr Ling on my way home from work”.