Showing posts with label Future. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Future. Show all posts

16/04/2015

Get Over It - Everyone Else Has...




Do you ever feel  like no one cares about what you're going through?  Or No one calls to check up on you or comes to your rescue? Guess what sweetie ! NO ONE FUCKING CARES! Yep, You read correct. No one cares, well at least not the way you want them to. We get to an age where everyone is doing their own thing, focusing on themselves and strategising their next career moves or business venture. We all have people who care for our well being, but they aways seem to have their own interest and agendas. Good old fashioned selfishness! But whos wrong in this situation them or you? while you are standing around feeling lonely , you're neglecting your most powerful allyyourself! 

This was a situation Ive found myself in one too many times. If you know me (hi guys) im a vocal, animated and very sociable. Possibly one of the most confident people youd ever meet. However, I was an extremely secretive person in regards to pretty much everything. From dudes, bad childhood experiences to family issues. It was like I needed to feel like I was in control of everything, so ultimately my friends were as much in the dark as a stranger off the street. I submerged my self into helping, advising and coaching others because it gave me purpose, it gave me taste of the very thing I was starved of.  Later, my unofficial shrink told me this was called deflection. Apparently It helps me ignore the negative feelings and emotions I have inside, which inturn make the situation worst.

04/06/2014

Believe them the FIRST time!


I learnt to do this the hard way. I didn't pay attention to the signs that were shown to me from the very beginning. You’re probably wondering what I’m talking about. My ex, who didn't treat me well. You see I should’ve known that when a guy doesn't call as often as you call him or barely takes you out to lush restaurants, bars or on dates in general, it’s probably not going anywhere regardless of what he says. His actions or rather lack of them, are probably never going to change.

Don’t get me wrong, yes, some people do change, but how long will it take for that change to come around? I realised that he had already shown me his true colours from the start, however, the question is why was I shocked when he revealed himself year in year out? When would I start believing his character and realise the relationship was rubbish and he was taking me for a ride?